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|  Happy Valentines Day
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This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind(LIKE YURI ALWAYS HAS MARIELA ON HIS MIND). Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. | | |
| School is going good...work could ALWAYS be better...I'm being to set better goals for moving to KS...i gotta save my cash and stick to a budget BIG time now...i wanna prove that i can take care of myself...I know that I can do this...i just gotta put my mind to it...lol...gotta run...holla at ya later. | | |
| Back to life...fun....why does my life suck when it really doesn't have to....damn it all...I found something out today that makes me very sad...but almost happy....it can go either way..if i were to have the strengh to move forward....i'm sorry if the out come wasn't what you wanted...but i'm also sad if it was . I don't know what i want any more....things are spinning way to fast for me to grab a hold of and i cant find the right way for ME to go...i can't follow your path...so don't even ask me to....its not all for me....i cant be that pretty glass doll in the case so don't tell me to. I cant do what you want me to...so please let me lay where i fall...if i one day can...i will pick myself up again...or maybe i wont...that's all for me to decide on.I would trade all the silver i have for that one gold piece...so stop telling me it is guilded in fools gold...i still want it more then everything i hold in my hands right now. I'd give my whole world for it...but it doesnt care for me at all....foolish little things that make up life. *sigh* just one more time..... | | |
| Merry Christmas and Happy New Year  !!! ...and all those other holidays that i can't spell....but anyways gearing up for Christamas and Kansas and a new year full of new things and people. Its gonna be a better year then last year ..i can feel it. I'm REALLY looking forward to my trip to KS its gonna be such a relief to be away from school and work for all that time. But I know i will greatly miss my friends here SOO very much. I had a nice birthday, and thank you for all that called and showed some love on my day. That was real nice of you...and for all you hater that didn't...that was cold... ((LOL)) JUST KIDDING. Val and Grace took me to SAtown for my Bday....we had fun there it was nice to get away ...just the 3 of us...hella fun ,,,traffic sucked...but its all good. This might be my last entry for a while. but if so Have a safe and happy holiday season and get lots of presents!! C ya Soon!! *hugs kisses and candies* tao | | |
| My Thanksgiving was eventful...spend it with val and her family, that was alotta fun. John Paul taught me a new card game...lol....and i kicked his ass in it too. I finally got to meet her other brother Raul, he does exsist...but something like a ghost tho, he was there then gone in under a flash..lol. But school and work still sucks...Life is gonna get better now tho. The end of an era...love comes and goes i guess...then sometimes it stays and makes it self unwelcomed under its own rights....then sometimes its not really love at all...suger coated lust with tiny pink sprinkles neatly wrapped with a red bow. But sometimes it starts off as something and ends as something totally different...it changes alot i guess the lines become blurred as it slolwly seeps into its new form...i know my limits now. Love is not a word..its an action...its not a feeling its a frame of mind that is then acted upon...it will always hurt even when it is proformed correctly...it will hurt even more if abused and neglected. True forgiveness is the only way to free ones self from the past. And bitterness will lead to an empty place. But true regret shame, apologies, and understanding will help that along. There is soo much in the world that I don't really understand...i guess i can't until i myself experiences them..but i can still stay firm in the beliefs that i have in myself. I can always say that i would never do that...but i understand why ppl do..even if i would never do it myself. I could sit here and write things for hours...but where does that get me. the future is closer then we all think it is...i guess we gotta just lay back and wait for it to arrive...
mike~ thanks for the good times. its been real...c ya... | | |
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